all we are is all there was and all the time that has been passed
if someone happens to ask me about what my hobby is, its kind of hard for me to set it up without being un-notional. but i think i might with dare would say that my hobby is to reminiscing the past. see what i mean? it is because i saw myself — with no inch of shame present — as a man of yore; since i speak whiloms and breathe foregones, idk if you could fathom but i see only forlornness afterwards.
or on another term, if you mind, others might call me a man who simply just cant move.
either way, i still do love romanticizing of what we once were and have had before. one of them, is how we lingered on social media afore. you know, these social media things have changed and brought so much. although ive left it around 3 years already. back then i saw and realized something, that there are thin differences between growing up WITH social media, and growing up ALONGSIDE social media. glad to be on the last one tho. for those who were by chance enclosed on the first one, which is overfilling the entirety of the internet by now, i just wanted to ask about one thing; just how the heck we all ended up like this? i still remember how the place used to be a quite peaceful one yet in no time the last thing i knew it suddenly became a colosseum of argument. the discussion or the discourse that revolves around disagreement is a common matter and it surely is a fine thing as long as it happens on a two way course. but it went to something unbearable when it took no rest on how one constrained their personal moral paradigm into each others on a basically daily basis level. man you have no idea how i even ran out of spaces for muted words and blocked accounts.
i still cant comprehend how people can have the nerve to push and compel their own intrusive standards (which were a harmless things IF they kept it for themselves) on others literal harmless stances (which were an intrusive things IF it being forced to people). idk, i suppose i should be grateful, perhaps, that i could discern these as a common sense and i consider it as a privilege. so i know there are those who have no such thing as of systemic and structural misfortune were happening out there. but i can only do much.
been grown up alongside social media has taught — at least — me to not take it for granted. besides, it didnt force and take my attention span that much in the early years of it since i was living more in the moment and everything surrounding me. cause back in the day it arrived as a mere complement and companion to our lives, not as life itself. yeah it wasnt a fully ideal model back then. i, just like those around my age, was going through every development and growth it made, so naturally i regarded it not as the real world, which in the first place how it was supposed to be and still should is, or more not as a second real world, and took everything that happened within it personally and intimately as if it had happened to their own real selves.
i think those are unavoidable tasks if youve been growing up with social media. being accustomed to seeing the situation that is happening in it as it just is. they have no other side to compare with the current thoroughly developed version which was blinding their sight away about what was right and what was wrong, about what was real and what was not. or is there even any right or wrong, any real thing or not to be started with? it seems to me that the ease of access also plays a significant role in why the situation was so awful in the first place. i mean it as easily to people as it only takes a phone and internet data to access it. which means more and more people will have used it, more people means more kinds of thinking will be present, and more kinds of thinking will bring chaos and order. but chaos and order in a place where norms that are based on mutual agreement does not exist? youd know what will take the biggest portion at the very end of the day.
and here we are now on the latter.
